Thursday, October 9, 2008

The miracle of life

I have not written a blog in so long and Phil and I decided we have really been slacking on this blogging for family and friends! Its October, weather is cooling down in Texas, great walks at the park and a fall season we will always remember as the time we find out about our first child!

Yes, we are pregnant! I am only 7 1/2 weeks along and taking all the proper measures to keep my first trimester smooth and safe, anxiously awaiting that 12-13th week when i can relax and feel we are out of the danger zone. Between prenatal vitamins, walking everyday, lots of rest, and a few doctors' orders... everything is so far so good.

Its the craziest thing you can imagine. One day you know you are "trying" to get pregnant, and it feels real, scary, exciting and fascinating... then the next you ARE pregnant and it takes your breath away. Not in the "oh crap" factor, but the moment of reality when you realize your lives will never be the same, you are creating a miracle of life, a beautiful being to love, nurture, and teach all you know. Its such an amazing feeling, such a blessing and something so real.

We had our first ultrasound this past week. When the baby showed up on the screen i got the best goosebumps and started to tear up. I looked at the screen and realized this was gonna be something big, something great, and the best thing I have ever done in my life, next to marrying Phil. I will never forget that day, hearing the heartbeat, seeing our baby for the first time.. it still tugs at my heart when i think about it. Phil has the baby's heartbeat recorded/saved on his phone. He listens to it all the time, we both do, and he may not confess to anyone, but I will proudly tell you he is quite the sentimental dad already. He tears up over the heartbeat, he is reading up all he can online.. he is so nurturing and supportive to both of us. Of course he thinks, naturally, it will be a boy, so he is picking our Boston Red Sox nursery decor, clothes, etc.... Goober!

Being pregnant has made me look around and think..yes i know, i havent been prego that long, but regardless... it makes you see things different. I think phil and I are one up on most expecting parents in the fact that we have two amazing families and an amazing group of friends who we have the pleasure of sharing this miracle with. I know we wont be completely perfect parents, but the amount of love that is building up day by day, week by week, and everytime we look at eachother for this baby is amazing.. and completely undescribable.